waves in and out
controlling the beat of my heart
these quick lights
here these people are full of life
all the time
there is no day
only night
where the soul is free
always
Nothing here is real
but it's okay
I can live with fake
I can live with only dreams
Don't follow me into this one
You'll get hurt
This skin needs to be cut open
there's too much blood inside
let some nice cool air go through the overheated body
watch the steam arise
[not done, i'm tired, i'll finish later]
..
[continuing]
Like the trotting of a horse
or the awkward presence of a stranger
you can always recognize it
Remind yourself of the feeling of being in a dark room
after the end of a movie
you sit there
can't see anything
just sit
feel it
live it
it's in you
the tv turns to fuzz
you can feel the only light off the tv hitting your face
you wish your favourite sad song was playing
i'm a hyena laughing at myself
I'm water evaporating infront of you
oh and you put me in that strange mood
where everything is slow motion
and the guitars become less stringy
the heartbeat follows the drums
I breathe in the bass
how I love being in the city this late
to think people are resting now
why can't everyone be here
why can't we all be in unison
I'll have another drink
No it's alright, i'm not a smoker
The colours of this room turn me on
and I can feel everything
I'm floating in everything around me
the atmosphere is absorbed through my pours
the strobe light is no longer amusing
I'm getting high of everyone and thing in this room
you're all my ecstacy
my heart stops as I eye you
the horror, the paranoid thoughts
my mind implodes
inside my head is only darkness and fear
Don't see me, i'm not really noticable anyways
i'll leave what i
but before i do just one glance
after all you seem to be the reason i remain
oh how cute you are
your dancing is wearing you down
-the beat stops-
all this time
it was you I wanted
all those late nights
were my body slept but my mind stayed awake thinking of you
replaying the same moments of interactions between us
smiling in my sleep
a feeling I can only feel in my dreams surrounds me
and I wake without it, and where it isn't there is only pain and regret
I've wanted you for a very long time
I've made myself sick over this
mentally poisoned myself
and now there you are
and here I am
both aware of eachother
your hair covering your face
you look silly
i don't want to look silly
-the beat resumes-
Sweat falling from your face
the outfit of your choice become wrinkled and less valued
and you come to me
in this heat
in this time
with all this commotion
and knowing how i feel
you get me to dance
i lied, i wanted to look silly
soon the clothes of my choice become less valued too
in no time both me sweat and yours
as sour as they are
harmonize a rhythm
Both of us
dancing
It's the inevitable end that strikes me halfway through
All the sudden the man in charge of controlling our emotional movements tells us he will no longer control us
I'm sad and you are too
Maybe if we go back to one of spaces where we pretend to live because something is watching us, then maybe we can continue this flow
probably not
the car ride between spots would absolutely kill who we think we are
Maybe we are who we think we are an we're hiding from who we know we are, thus the situation has been reversed
That makes this fiction alot more of a reality
All this happens in my mind while you desperately search for a combination of notes and rhythms on the radio that could keep this alive
But then we crash and die
and lay dead, together, forever
our bodies cold, and there just as I say I love you, after all the things that have happened the song that made you dance with me comes on
you smile
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