swearing julia

You left me stupid

waiting up to dry

nothings left

nowehere to hide

from my mistakes

you know i have a few

the last one i made

was when i spoke to you

I grew up

I grew old

but i never found out

you weren't told

I'll shut up

i'll go home

i'll live my life

happy being alone

when you spoke for me

is when i learned to walk

there was no one there

no one knew how to talk

you breathed me in

like your cigarette smoke

you showed me something

that wasn't useless hope

You had a good excuse

why you had to leave

my life wasn't for you

you needed a new scene

When I woke up

afraid from my dreams

And here I thought

There was someone to care

but then my dream

turned into a nightmare

You were gone

and I felt so wrong

naked and cold

you watched my life unfold

swearing charlotte

I wake up

I had a bad dream

I couldn't find you

You were so cold

If you have my sweater

Let it stay with you

How holy are hearts were

How we parted

Oh the stars

They tempt me

To create

To destroy

To grow natural

to crack the sky

to rise from soil

and turn into the sunlight

Victory

at last

I can think again

without my past

I stopped for you

I lost myself

I thawed my own heart

I tore my world apart

Our father

Lead us not in to temptation

My only salvation

The root to my creation

Take me with you

If you're really leaving

take me straight through

I don't want to be alone

children

Angels and Demons rage inside

I go into the place I try hide

Where the colours desist

and the darkness exist

Where nothing can be felt

Where snow could never melt

My echoed skulls interior

Where doubt is most superior

I will drag these chains

Down my memory lanes

Yet you remember to cheat

Harm has never felt so sweet

what a wonderful night for sadness

Keep this one low

I have to move slow

I need to get inside

And be next to you

I needed to tell myself

That a day wasn't enough

That I could call your bluff

And be next to you

I don't want to cross

These traffic lights

It's a dark road im taking

for these last couple nights

Do you think you could get next to me?

Do you think you could intense with me?

Alright

Oh no

She's coming up to me

I need to be alone

Cause everytime she moves

she moves me

and everytime shes smooth

she smooths me

stupidness act 1

incomplete

to my defeat

I have been left alone

empty cars

shineless stars

no where seems like home

You were my dream

and i was your nightmare

maddy, say it's time to go

late nights in london

lead you to danger

Staircase, brick wall winding up

Through the castle of dead we fall

Frieghttrain riding late at night

Frieghttrain telling you goodnight

All my memories stand quiet

It's as dark as it gets

I'm standing outside your door

In the rain the thunder roars

So many damaging thoughts

To let go of my memories

I don't want to be left alone

And when everyone leaves

I call nowhere my home

I hate to see it turn vintage

Where were you when everything started to grow old

Were you out trying to find the purpose of your soul

Because I wasn't

I was here alone

Afraid

With no one to help

And you weren't there for me

The only person who could save me

Was the only one who didn't want to

Does this mean I was destined to die?

I've turned my back on my self esteem

I'm wasting life

But they don't care

I'm going down

But they don't care

Tomorrow has no promise

I will miss you all

Goodbye all I love

The words left the old man's tongue

the words that kept him forever young

The man on the moon

Annie can you see me standing outside your door

Annie can you hear me screaming out for more

When I wrap my arms around you

You make everything alright you make me fight

but only one at a time

You feed my all the laws you saw on television

and call it a night

I can't wait wait until I see you

When I wrap my arms around you

lately everything i've been writing sucks ass

Dead on a beautiful day is modern art
From out my chest will crawl my heart
The trail of blood and a razorblade kiss
The day I die is one I won't miss