said yes to me

I can feel your eyes pounding on me

as my thoughts race the speed of light

decisions are made

regrets are born

Dig your bones into mine

Smile away the pain you hide

Be vicious like I remember

I see you behind my eyes

I'm going to get you out

Carve like the Carpenter

My ribs are protecting a heart full of dust, old rusted lust

No more sunshine

No more rain

No imagination for the clouds

Today they all look the same

Big and ugly

I'd kill everyone and everything if I had the chance

Mr. Lawyer, quote this; I obviously mean it.

it takes it's tolls

what's unwanted

often controls

destroys

and molds

we buy out

lose souls

you're making me feel like a fool

who's trusted in his demons

rising into the stars

from the ashes

of a once bound human ace

type of kind with a wicked face

leave without a trace

no worries

i'm easy to replace

your one i'd like to taste

haunted laterns full of glory

and the infinite immediate deslocate of what we believe stands the moon upside down with a frown as a face

daisys are dead

feel the eyes of the eerie crowd

in the middle

the ones you don't know

the ones who aren't proud

adrenaline

mountains

fire

scratches

watch us unfold

for the price of gold

and now to continue the false sense of hope

consealed before my chest

there was never a relationship such as this

do your eyes betray you

I didn't want anything

not even you

regardless of how it seemed

do try to beat this

it's all done

fire is stupid and so am i

No one see's

the frustrations

the little confusions

pulsating under my skin

My hands bending into sharp shapes

this anxiety is poison

the sharp bitterness

it's always there

attacking me

it won't let me go no matter what

I squirm

pushing my neck up hoping this feeling won't dominate my body full

but it doesn't work

it crawls into my skull

visions get warm and swarm together

Everything is so inproportionate

nothing makes sense now

she's definately in my system

there's no one to blame but myself

maybe that's why im sad

because no matter what has happened

I could have avoided it

I take comfort knowing

I will forever be a tool of yours

you can use me whenever you want

what I write isn't even poetry anymore, it's just my sadness because I let the only girl i'll ever love get away because i'm an awkward insecure, territorial bastard

let's start here

I'm in love with you

and I've been since I can remember

but I'm not meant for you

It's not the celebrations

the colours or the styles

not when my hair is pushed back

it's just you, that's all i care about.

It's over

and you're gone

this was the last time

I saw your beautiful face

I'll never see it again

I don't ever want to see anything

Ever

I can't believe it

I'll never see you again

EVER

after four longs years

of loving you

killing myself

all for nothing

i'd do it again if i could

i love you soo much

i need you

why have you left me

can't you see im hurt but still breathing

I need this

I want this

I crave this

I feel this

feel so real I forgot to feel

against all odds

i'm not over you

i never will be

i loved you

please just think of me ever here and then

i've lost you

I want to die

And I just might

I'm going to commit suicide

I'm going to kill myself

it's what I've been waiting for

it's all i need

to complete life

the final stage

nevermind

but it doesn't mean i forgot about my love

the one with the smile full of sunshine

the one who made the cup full

she left me

she never even wanted me

she keeps me and calls me thunder

they've been talking about you

they know somethings wrong

we can be like the trees and grow old

punk

It's all gone

Gone somewhere

can you just

Take me there

I am trapped

this spot so tight

everyone

left me tonight

these feelings

disregarded

You're leaving

And here I stand

Four long years

And I'm still no man

the future

makes me afraid

I feel so

Betrayed

Left behind

they forget me

inside i
feel so lonely

whats happening

where are all of you

evolving

wheres my excuse

my option

eat the shotgun

I wont be

missed by anyone

take your time

faster faster faster faster

take your time

faster faster faster faster

Do you think

that your secure

does it feel

like im immature

so what

you're progressing

it's not a

fucking blessing

well, it's sort of like that moment when you wake up although already conscious, and you have no idea what is going on or where you are, but all you know is that it's not supposed to be happening.

minutes, flowers, dew and sadness

So I sat in my room taring myself apart all day and all night just waiting eventually i would realize some things won't live the dead are dead and the living will be dead it's the trend we all follow and so I sat in my room screaming for days and days and days hoping someone would hear me no hoping that she would hear me but she never will I've over watered this plant i am dead to her and she is all i'll ever be so I am dead I go to sleep I never wake up I am smiles