X's and O's

I want to sink to the bottom of the ocean

I want to cut myself open and bleed out my emotions

No matter where I go

I can hear them laugh

Her fragile body

Within my arms reach

She lays her head on my lap

While I prepare my speech

I'm out for hours

In search of her

Despite her mistakes

I'm searching for things that were

Screaming the air from my lungs

If I accept her, will it be enough for her?

I am the best architect there is

I built my very own enemy

And it destroyed me like no other

I'm walking over others

I'm walking over everyone

But i'm the one with footprints on my back

There is no music for this chapter

Oh the hands touching

An empty face

A swollen heart

When our arms fold over eachother

And you are the eclipse to my thoughts

I tried to tell her so

But my translation was lost between my teeth

And the words came out as a picture with no one in it

Only colours that don't match

Then for this cause I am immature

Because I've diluted myself with substances unpure

To die for what I feel for

While I feel myself dying

In this storm with heavy thunder

I can't help but wonder

Where the water has seized to fall

Through the cracks that are appreciated

And the rain will sleep on my chest

While the concrete becomes home to the rest

And within the moment of flashing beauty

My breath escapes its ribbed cage

While she cuts herself and turns the page

Because there is no moment in this horrible story

That comfort can be taken in the words "I'm sorry"

Though I loved the taste when fed to me

And my selfish spine and my worthless mind created a reason

That I could go on with this and feel human

Oh the words were true

She broke me, and she got to choose

Flowers stained and rusted

In this home I call my heart

I'll never know what I wanted

And i'll never feel the same again

She said I was her lover, I wasn't even her friend

As I finely removed her devilish instrument from my vertebrae

She puts in yet another

10 cigarettes and a drop of body heat later, the third is in the front

Oh my little girl

My very special girl

Who dragged me into a world that I never thought could exist

The night before I loved her, but the night of I did not

The strings of her around me, I had finally been caught

Oh Jess my little girl, I watched you destroy my world, and you laugh at me for it.

The ones who truly care, I disregard

The one who didn't care, I show her my card

This is a puzzle that will never be complete

These are the words of a stolen boy, who has accepted his defeat.

How bizarre

I came home and my house sold itself

Now I am homeless

I seem to still be sticking around my old house though

I don't understand how it could've sold itself

I mean

It was my house

Shouldn't I have moved out first?