it's not like anybody fucking cares
why do they care now?
when im starving and bleeding
they just want their own
that's all it is
a game
this is extra
am i down
am i down yet
you're out while im in
inside the box i sleep
i live here
but you know that already
some things can't change
cause i won't let them
I need my soul back
now im gonna force it back
who am i trying to be
you or someone else
whatever, its not me
you think you've had the worse
my blood is ink, and it's writing you a message
let me out for once
i see you trying to cage me
do you hear me scream
of course you do
Where is everyone
not on the way
they're never on the way
its never fair it's always your way
im gonna to take you out
you wait pretty eyes
i'll make the lights ugly
change when i look, very nice
I see what you're doing
fucking face me
don't run away like you always do
How is my favourite enemy by the way
Dying? Well that's not good enough
I hope each part of your body is ripped off
i hope each bump in your back is pierced
I hope the poison inside you is not enough to save you
Give me myself back
I don't want any of your bullshit
It's not my fault
the first time i've said that
it's not
I tried everything, nothing was an exception
but you had to win
you had to choke my life
you had to take it all away from me
everything i wanted, everything i had
you fucking stole it
and when you saw what you stole wasn't worth it
you threw it away
im not even good enough to be your trash?
I hear you suffer
but it's not loud enough
it's so quiet
let's all talk about it
i want them all to suffer
I want them all to hurt
the way i do
the way i always will
in every way possible
motion picks up and you're in the same spot
my day will be your year
i can't wait
these halls remind me
of the heart I once thought i had
Is it you ripping out my heart or me?
Sunday, December 28, 2008
This parade is out of fire Share
the prettiest girl always dresses the most ugly
baby its not about what you want
it's about what you get
and yet
you forget
you are in debt
to me the boy who introduced you to love
your light shines through me
but i've waited for so long
i've walked into death for you
I think it's time you take me
to your heaven
it's so safe to be alone
put it on
take me out
put it on
take me out
were going a ride aren't we?
through the back of my memories
we'll set on a runaway train
into the town with no name
Under the claws of the night
You'll smile like the moons light
As we across the bridge
into this castle's ribs
you're trying so hard to blossom
but that day will never come
When you forget your past
and your mind becomes one
You are mine
I've made you what you are
and if you forget
I won't be far
I'm always here for you
I know you will lose
When you lose i lose
I need you to win
Taste the sun in the morning
run
they're coming after you
and there's nothing you can do
Leaving, decieving
you left them grieving
take some of these things and hide away
i'll forget your face, swallow your name
are they afraid of me
they call me blue
but they'll take it back
when they drown in their pool
i'll surprise you somehow
you're always afraid of what im going to be
im your friend and im your enemy
you don't see what this thing means to me
I can't walk any further
it's time i turn around
and go home
for once
How i wish i could pull together
all my wandering memories
so i could imitate the feel
of an old, maybe forgotten memory
tomorrow seems like any other day
yesterday's so far away
baby its not about what you want
it's about what you get
and yet
you forget
you are in debt
to me the boy who introduced you to love
your light shines through me
but i've waited for so long
i've walked into death for you
I think it's time you take me
to your heaven
it's so safe to be alone
put it on
take me out
put it on
take me out
were going a ride aren't we?
through the back of my memories
we'll set on a runaway train
into the town with no name
Under the claws of the night
You'll smile like the moons light
As we across the bridge
into this castle's ribs
you're trying so hard to blossom
but that day will never come
When you forget your past
and your mind becomes one
You are mine
I've made you what you are
and if you forget
I won't be far
I'm always here for you
I know you will lose
When you lose i lose
I need you to win
Taste the sun in the morning
run
they're coming after you
and there's nothing you can do
Leaving, decieving
you left them grieving
take some of these things and hide away
i'll forget your face, swallow your name
are they afraid of me
they call me blue
but they'll take it back
when they drown in their pool
i'll surprise you somehow
you're always afraid of what im going to be
im your friend and im your enemy
you don't see what this thing means to me
I can't walk any further
it's time i turn around
and go home
for once
How i wish i could pull together
all my wandering memories
so i could imitate the feel
of an old, maybe forgotten memory
tomorrow seems like any other day
yesterday's so far away
why do i do this to myself?
Tonight
I want to feel alive
Like the others can
I want to sell my soul
Become colourblind
I don't want to see the world
from soul filled eyes
you can't fool me
you can even fool yourself
because you can't see
you're becoming something else
I don't want to drag your opinion out of you
But if you're turned off then leave
I'm sorry if this hurts
but maybe you need to be hurt
You broke my spine
I find trying to get around every ridge in your ribs causes problems
I should go straight for the heart
because i am complete
and i still feel weak
It's hard trying to resist failure
that's all it is really
A dream
that you could be happy
doing what is wrong
that is resisting failure
how can things that understand you
be your own enemies?
it's simple
you're just a fool
you get lost in the music
it's the sweat mixed with the lights
here we go
I don't want to repeat this
but there's no denying it
the story will tell itself if i don't
all these infections i'm creating
for one stupid cure
which i have still yet to find
I guess you need to understand the disease before you can have a cure
don't take my word for it though
I have nothing
I am a man without words, but stubborn enough to argue with my tongue
which cannot taste by the way
I've sold my own thoughts for you
but the profit isn't here
or anywhere
I am poor now
and i still sell everything i get
because i need you
I don't know what to do
I hope this gets through to you
the coldness means nothing because i have it everyday
i keep it in a jar, and this jar is locked away
I'm expressing my own flaws and my consciousness of this tragedy i have yet to prevent
I want to feel alive
Like the others can
I want to sell my soul
Become colourblind
I don't want to see the world
from soul filled eyes
you can't fool me
you can even fool yourself
because you can't see
you're becoming something else
I don't want to drag your opinion out of you
But if you're turned off then leave
I'm sorry if this hurts
but maybe you need to be hurt
You broke my spine
I find trying to get around every ridge in your ribs causes problems
I should go straight for the heart
because i am complete
and i still feel weak
It's hard trying to resist failure
that's all it is really
A dream
that you could be happy
doing what is wrong
that is resisting failure
how can things that understand you
be your own enemies?
it's simple
you're just a fool
you get lost in the music
it's the sweat mixed with the lights
here we go
I don't want to repeat this
but there's no denying it
the story will tell itself if i don't
all these infections i'm creating
for one stupid cure
which i have still yet to find
I guess you need to understand the disease before you can have a cure
don't take my word for it though
I have nothing
I am a man without words, but stubborn enough to argue with my tongue
which cannot taste by the way
I've sold my own thoughts for you
but the profit isn't here
or anywhere
I am poor now
and i still sell everything i get
because i need you
I don't know what to do
I hope this gets through to you
the coldness means nothing because i have it everyday
i keep it in a jar, and this jar is locked away
I'm expressing my own flaws and my consciousness of this tragedy i have yet to prevent
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Bob Dylan would be ashamed of me
well i remember nothings there
i guess she just don't care
I keep crawling back to her
and she keeps pushing me away
I guess if she won't like me tomorrow
it's cause she don't like me today
i've been trying to reach my arms out
pull the sanguine out of my word
but there ain't nothing i can do
nothing ever works, but everything always hurts
she puts me inside my own body
ties me up and stares me down
when she sees me start rotting
its my inner self i've found
I heard there was a way out
but everyone
I used to be your best advice
but i was only a device
to help you
always get your way
the past is long
your charm is strong
my face is wrong
i hate this song
and i cannot complete this with you
well if it takes two fighters
to tell you a story
I can bet you don't care about morals
you just want to bathe in glory
well im not wrong
i am wrong
i aint wrong
i don't belong
i thinking im drowning in my own self esteem
I don't care
my heart shares
but i'm not there
so it's not fair
but you'll take it anyways
and sell me
you say you will survive
but you won't really live your life
you're taking this the wrong way
i can't see it through
if it gets from me to you
i guess im probably cut and blue
don't sew me up im not ready to be one
im not for anyone
but if you see these sad emotions
and you feel my heart's commotions
you can fix me up anyway you want
im not alone
I am alone
i know i don't have a home
I get high and i slip into the zone
I become a drone
do you have some cash to loan
im a shark
my room is dark
and i don't care about you
or anyone
I have a criminals taste
i know i am a waste
stop me from drinking coffee
i don't want to catch a cold
I can't help but grow old
when the calvary comes in
you get inspired and win
but it's not that easy
don't you know
you can never give in
im a zombie
mindless but selfish
I just want more and I need you to give it to me
find a sword and stick it through me
when the sun comes up you watch and choke
and see the boy with the story of the year
i guess she just don't care
I keep crawling back to her
and she keeps pushing me away
I guess if she won't like me tomorrow
it's cause she don't like me today
i've been trying to reach my arms out
pull the sanguine out of my word
but there ain't nothing i can do
nothing ever works, but everything always hurts
she puts me inside my own body
ties me up and stares me down
when she sees me start rotting
its my inner self i've found
I heard there was a way out
but everyone
I used to be your best advice
but i was only a device
to help you
always get your way
the past is long
your charm is strong
my face is wrong
i hate this song
and i cannot complete this with you
well if it takes two fighters
to tell you a story
I can bet you don't care about morals
you just want to bathe in glory
well im not wrong
i am wrong
i aint wrong
i don't belong
i thinking im drowning in my own self esteem
I don't care
my heart shares
but i'm not there
so it's not fair
but you'll take it anyways
and sell me
you say you will survive
but you won't really live your life
you're taking this the wrong way
i can't see it through
if it gets from me to you
i guess im probably cut and blue
don't sew me up im not ready to be one
im not for anyone
but if you see these sad emotions
and you feel my heart's commotions
you can fix me up anyway you want
im not alone
I am alone
i know i don't have a home
I get high and i slip into the zone
I become a drone
do you have some cash to loan
im a shark
my room is dark
and i don't care about you
or anyone
I have a criminals taste
i know i am a waste
stop me from drinking coffee
i don't want to catch a cold
I can't help but grow old
when the calvary comes in
you get inspired and win
but it's not that easy
don't you know
you can never give in
im a zombie
mindless but selfish
I just want more and I need you to give it to me
find a sword and stick it through me
when the sun comes up you watch and choke
and see the boy with the story of the year
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Bleak to Existence
The melody in my mind
is sung in my heart which you can't find
A drop of blood in the night
If it's not wrong it's right
Outstanding, incompetence
I've taken my body because of you
I've dressed so many
And stole their pride
Under this thick skin is something waiting to be free
far down into the impossible there is something alive
Im stepping through my sorrow and it's up to my knee
Under everything, can I still survive?
You keep telling me you're there
but when i need you the most
your fade into the air
You turn into a Ghost
As a thousand sailors sink into the sea
I can only think of what you've done to me
The sun burns me like an ashtray heart
And you and me remain at the start
The flesh i inherited is my gift
With or without it I won't drift
I'm dressed in ivory sin
It gets darker when you look within
This broken heart worthy of a thousand stitches
I will only take them when she wishes
I love the way you smile
it reminds me im in a trance, a denial
I'm putting it all out
I forgetting how you felt
She gets in my head
For a moment i have happiness instead
Make your move
I've lost my spot
Waiting for so long at the front of the line
Was it worth the leave?
You were the rose without a thorn
The reason why I'm torn
No medicine can cure what destroys me
No other soul will set my own free
Until the day I wake up without your taste
I will draw life from your smile and not your face
How deep inside me you've planted a seed made to corrupt the very essence of myself. An infectious sickness of natures poison could not have cursed me so. I have sunk into a level of discomfort as i had been breathing time, like a smoker. You shade in my bright side, I am in debt to the amount of sorrow and shame you have let me hold for you.
I love you.
is sung in my heart which you can't find
A drop of blood in the night
If it's not wrong it's right
Outstanding, incompetence
I've taken my body because of you
I've dressed so many
And stole their pride
Under this thick skin is something waiting to be free
far down into the impossible there is something alive
Im stepping through my sorrow and it's up to my knee
Under everything, can I still survive?
You keep telling me you're there
but when i need you the most
your fade into the air
You turn into a Ghost
As a thousand sailors sink into the sea
I can only think of what you've done to me
The sun burns me like an ashtray heart
And you and me remain at the start
The flesh i inherited is my gift
With or without it I won't drift
I'm dressed in ivory sin
It gets darker when you look within
This broken heart worthy of a thousand stitches
I will only take them when she wishes
I love the way you smile
it reminds me im in a trance, a denial
I'm putting it all out
I forgetting how you felt
She gets in my head
For a moment i have happiness instead
Make your move
I've lost my spot
Waiting for so long at the front of the line
Was it worth the leave?
You were the rose without a thorn
The reason why I'm torn
No medicine can cure what destroys me
No other soul will set my own free
Until the day I wake up without your taste
I will draw life from your smile and not your face
How deep inside me you've planted a seed made to corrupt the very essence of myself. An infectious sickness of natures poison could not have cursed me so. I have sunk into a level of discomfort as i had been breathing time, like a smoker. You shade in my bright side, I am in debt to the amount of sorrow and shame you have let me hold for you.
I love you.
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