Bleak to Existence

The melody in my mind
is sung in my heart which you can't find
A drop of blood in the night
If it's not wrong it's right

Outstanding, incompetence

I've taken my body because of you

I've dressed so many
And stole their pride

Under this thick skin is something waiting to be free
far down into the impossible there is something alive
Im stepping through my sorrow and it's up to my knee
Under everything, can I still survive?

You keep telling me you're there
but when i need you the most
your fade into the air
You turn into a Ghost

As a thousand sailors sink into the sea
I can only think of what you've done to me
The sun burns me like an ashtray heart
And you and me remain at the start

The flesh i inherited is my gift
With or without it I won't drift
I'm dressed in ivory sin
It gets darker when you look within

This broken heart worthy of a thousand stitches
I will only take them when she wishes
I love the way you smile
it reminds me im in a trance, a denial

I'm putting it all out
I forgetting how you felt
She gets in my head
For a moment i have happiness instead

Make your move
I've lost my spot
Waiting for so long at the front of the line
Was it worth the leave?

You were the rose without a thorn
The reason why I'm torn
No medicine can cure what destroys me
No other soul will set my own free

Until the day I wake up without your taste
I will draw life from your smile and not your face

How deep inside me you've planted a seed made to corrupt the very essence of myself. An infectious sickness of natures poison could not have cursed me so. I have sunk into a level of discomfort as i had been breathing time, like a smoker. You shade in my bright side, I am in debt to the amount of sorrow and shame you have let me hold for you.

I love you.