start dead

it's not like anybody fucking cares
why do they care now?
when im starving and bleeding
they just want their own
that's all it is
a game
this is extra
am i down
am i down yet

you're out while im in
inside the box i sleep
i live here
but you know that already
some things can't change
cause i won't let them
I need my soul back
now im gonna force it back

who am i trying to be
you or someone else
whatever, its not me
you think you've had the worse
my blood is ink, and it's writing you a message

let me out for once
i see you trying to cage me
do you hear me scream
of course you do
Where is everyone
not on the way
they're never on the way

its never fair it's always your way
im gonna to take you out
you wait pretty eyes
i'll make the lights ugly

change when i look, very nice
I see what you're doing
fucking face me
don't run away like you always do

How is my favourite enemy by the way
Dying? Well that's not good enough
I hope each part of your body is ripped off
i hope each bump in your back is pierced
I hope the poison inside you is not enough to save you

Give me myself back
I don't want any of your bullshit
It's not my fault
the first time i've said that
it's not
I tried everything, nothing was an exception
but you had to win
you had to choke my life
you had to take it all away from me
everything i wanted, everything i had
you fucking stole it
and when you saw what you stole wasn't worth it
you threw it away
im not even good enough to be your trash?
I hear you suffer
but it's not loud enough
it's so quiet
let's all talk about it
i want them all to suffer
I want them all to hurt
the way i do
the way i always will
in every way possible
motion picks up and you're in the same spot
my day will be your year
i can't wait
these halls remind me
of the heart I once thought i had

Is it you ripping out my heart or me?